He lights up my world. He is everything I never thought I want and need in my life. Just being with him, makes me feel contented, complete. I'm so blessed to have him in my life.
I know how much Riley misses me now that I'm working full time. He will say "mama wag ka magsschool" or "mama dito ka lang sa bahay" or "mama gusto ko wait mo ko sa school ko." It makes me sad. It makes me feel like I'm not being a good mother to him. But I know, someday, when he's grown up enough, he'll understand all these sacrifices I have to do for the both of us. But still, kahit nabbreak ko ang promise ko sa kanya, he still loves me like I'm the most wonderful person in the world!
One time, I was caught up in a pouring rain. I was soaking wet when I got home. Riley came up to me crying. Sabi ko, bakit Riley? He said "ayaw ko babasa ka sa ulan!" Then he gets a towel and pinunasan nya ko. I was so touched that he worried that much about me. Or sometimes, Riley would kiss me with no reason at all and say "I love you mama." Whenever Riley saw me crying he will wipe my tears with his hands and say "dont worry mama". (Yes, english nya cnasabi un!) Tapos sasabihin nya, "ngiti ka na mama." And he won't stop until I do. When I was sick last month, he'll get me water or give me biscuits and say "mama, aalagaan kita." and tap my shoulders. He loves me and he showed it openly. Minsan naman, sasabihin nya "ganda naman ni mama!", while I'm fixing my hair. Or he'll smell my hair and say "bango buhok mo mama." I always say, we balance each other out because Riley is soooo talkative while I'm tahimik. Riley is a joker and I'm the serious type. He is the one who will do wacky faces, or sing crazy songs, or dance silly just to make me laugh. He's kenkoy and I'm a killjoy! hehe. So bagay talaga kaming magsamang dalawa :)
Simple things, simple joys. These are what we go through together everyday. Nothing out of ordinary but are priceless and precious and I'll forever treasure. We all wanted to be loved. And for me, I found love from the most innocent and purest soul I have ever met. I have found my happiness.
Dear Riley,
Bday mo n naman! I wish sana matuto ka na magbasa para mabasa mo na ang mga letter at blog ko tungkol sayo. Makinig ka kasi palagi kay Teacher Rose at Teacher Kresta para matuto ka na. Alam ko ako dapat mauna magturo sayo magbasa pro busy lang c mama sa pgiging teacher. Nxt year hndi na ko masyado busy (sana!) kaya mas matutukan ko na pag-aaral mo. :) Thank you for loving mama. Thank you for taking good care of me and for making me laugh all the time. When I wanted to give up over silly things, I just think of you, or look at your picture on my table, then I believe in myself again because I know you believe so much in me.
At dahil jan, pagbibigyan kita sa palagi mong request sakin! Ang mag-Robinson!!! hehe. Kahit anong gusto mo, kahit magkano (na sa tingin ko kay acceptable na price!) bibilhin ni mama. Sa tuwing may gusto kang bilhin sinasabi ko sayo "sa birthday mo bibilhin natin" o kaya naman "sa Pasko natin bibilhin." Kaya this is your chance anak! hehe. Excited na ko para bukas!
Oh, I almost forgot my 5 wishes on your 5th birthday. Here they are in particular order:
1. May you know God and Jesus more.
2. May you be healthy and safe at all times.
3. Sana palagi kang masaya kahit na tayo lang dalawa palagi.
4. I hope sipagin ka na mag-aral.
5. Sana kumain ka ng kumain para tumaba ka na!
There. Happy birthday ulit Riley. Bottomline, I wish you all the best this world has to offer. May we have many more birthdays to celebrate, more memories to cherish and more love to share! I love you anak! Muah!
mama
