1 Corinthians 13

"Love is patient and kind.

Love is not jealous or boastful 

or proud or rude."

Seriously, I find this day, "a day to boast and show off" about what their loved ones has given them. I just don't buy it. Flowers or chocolates or love messages are ok. But I find it superficial. My fb is flooded with post about what their juwawas has given them. Feeling ko nang iinggit lang ang mga tao na ganun. Hehe. Bitter?!

Nope, I am not bitter. Daddy R greeted me privately earlier this day and I don't really care if that's all I get. I know he loves me, and I love him. That's enough for me. Besides, I've experienced what it feels like when someone showered you with gifts. My ex bf used to give me flowers, chocolates, and even my guitar. It gives me affirmation that I am LOVED. That I am SPECIAL. I have nothing against to all the SWEET guys out there. I'm just saying that sincerity and faithfulness are what I prefer more. Because fyi, that man I was talking about broke my heart in the end. 

"Love does not demand its own way."

Long distance love affair. It's never easy. I maybe immune to the longing and sadness by now but that didn't lessen my love for him. I would always remember the last night we spent before he leaves to US. We were resting in the hotel room, Riley in the middle of us. I was crying silently. I don't want to bother Daddy with my whining. Then I heard a sniff. For the first time in my life, I've never been moved as much as seeing a man cries. I felt the agony in his voice while we were talking. It's hard when someone left you but its harder when you are the one leaving. At least, I have Riley by my side. I could make Daddy stay here for good. But that would mean clipping his wings to dreams. Love is not selfish.   

"Love never gives up, 

never loses faith, 

is always hopeful, 

and endures through every circumstance."

Whenever, we chat or talk, it feels like yesterday. We seldom talk but I don't mind. I trust him. I want him to feel that he is in no obligation to talk to me everyday. I mean he also has his own life and I want him to enjoy life as well. I am not giving up. I am not losing faith. Soon enough we'll see each other again. Distance is just a test to see how far love can travel. Ayt? Ayt!

"There are three things that will endure

--faith, hope, and love--

and the greatest of these is love."

Hey, I am not implying I have a perfect love story. Believe me, I am soooo far from fairy tales. But I appreciate whatever God has given me. For me, the true meaning of love is not the extravagance. Not the presents. Not the flowers. And not a one time event. It should be celebrated everyday. Love is forever. And I wish once and for all, we stop bragging and start caring. 

all i want for Christmas........

is YOU!!!!!

i just miss you :(

dear daddyko (formerly known as daddyfriend),

i don't know why but i suddenly miss you. i want to hug you, kiss you, and talk to you. face to face. i know we always talk online but i want to see you. to see your super handsome face. lol! there's never a time that i dont think of you. how can i? when our son always remind me of you. when i look at riley, i will always see you in him, specially when he smiles :) and when he swims and how he interacts with other socially, i would always have that thought "nakuha nya sa daddy nya un." oh how i love to see you together! i like to know how you would handle riley if he cries? how would you make him laugh? how would you take care of him? and how would riley feels about you? i long for the days when you will come back and we will be reunited again. a whole family. remember when u ask me if i want an extravagant party for our son's first bday? i told you, if you would go home, i would exchange all that for YOU. i would rather celebrate with the three of us together than be with a hundred guest. you are more important to riley and to me. but i know its not that easy. you have work and all that. and the expenses. i know. i know. i understand. i have to. i know you also miss us. it's hard. but we'll get through with this.

daddyko, i am not an easy person to be with. there are times naaway kita out of nowhere. hehe. forgive me. sometimes, desperation gets into me. sometimes i think too much. and instead of getting angry back at me, you patiently explains things. you patiently wait until i became calm again. please continue doing that. sometimes i just have to let it all out. then after a while i came back to my senses again. thank you for not giving up on me. on "us." we're not the typical boyfriend/girlfriend. we're past through kilig and ligawan stage. and yet when you call me, i still get high as if you're still courting me. lol. (i love to hear your voice, by the way) i hope that would never changed as well.

i dont talk about you often but the truth is IM SO PROUD OF YOU! i want the whole world to know how LUCKY i am to have met and to have known a guy like you. i dont regret having a child with you. I LOVE YOU! and that's the whole truth.

love,
joyce

p.s.
sorry. cant talk to you again later. our "BOSS" are still here. ang dami ko nang MISS syo! :(