the year that was

As we say goodbye to 2010, I can’t help but be grateful to the blessings that God has given me. I don’t know what I did to deserve such good things. Although at the beginning of 2010, I somewhat fell apart. But now I believe that things happen for a reason. If you just hold on to your faith and trust God with your life, nothing could break you. Anyway, it’s just nice to reminisce and to look back to the year that was.

January. Living my life as it is. Little did I know that my single life was about to end. I have no idea that a life inside me is beginning to develop. And that a new adventure is waiting ahead for me.

Although I kinda look chubby in this photo, it’s only “bilbil”. There’s No sign of being pregnant yet.

February. The month of revelations. February 10, 2010. I can’t forget that date. That’s the first time I learn I’m pregnant. I’m beginning to experience the early sign of pregnancy such as morning sickness, fatigue, mood swings, etc. I first consulted a gastroenterologist (thinking the reason of my vomiting is ulcer) who requested for a whole abdomen ultrasound. Halfway the examination, the radiologist then blurted out: “E alam mo bang buntis ka?” I was like “did I hear wat I thought I heard?” or was I imagining it? So I ask: “Ano po un?” he look at the monitor again and said “d me pwede mgkmali, ayan o, buntis ka” and my second question was “cgrdo po kyo?” I had to be sure. I mean it could be a mass of tumor or some internal part of my body. And he said “Oo, magiging nanay ka na sa September” I don’t know what to feel at first. I went home that day in shock and kinda not myself. I couldn’t think properly and I couldn’t process the whole situation first. Happy, scared, disbelief, I didn’t know a person could feel such emotions all at the same time! Of course the first person I shared this news is the father of my baby. Then I told Gian and my ate.

Gian knows my secret so I was careful not to anger him. LOL

March. Worried Scared. I’m not worried about what people would say. I was worried with my baby. I have a friend who had miscarriage before. At this time of pregnancy, I couldn’t feel my baby yet and I remember I had fever due to stress. I was scared that something bad would happen to it. Or it would affect my baby.

medyo my bump na tummy ko pro pwede p itago sa dmit...

march 31, 2010

April. My Family. Thanks to Gian my family knows. Gian is good with keeping my secret until we had a big fight! Lol. He spilled my secret to everyone including his playmates! Well, I couldn’t blame him since my mood swings were really flaring out at this month. LOL. For no reason at all, I will always get mad and get irritated with Nyle. When my mother finally knows that I’m pregnant, she said, “napaglihian mo siguro si nyle kaya lagi ka galit sa kanya.” Hehe. But I’m really glad that they know. Besides, I could not keep that secret for long. My tummy is getting bigger and bigger by days.

yan na bumubukol na!

May. First Public Appearance. May 10, 2010 I was ready to make the whole world know that I’m pregnant. I voted and I wore a preggy dress. I saw some of my elementary classmates and some relatives and so my pregnancy became public.

parang nakalulon n ng melon!

may 1, 2010

 June. Comfortable. I am getting comfortable with being pregnant by this time. Plus I already know that I’m going to have a son! I can feel him kicking and moving and his heart beating. I was really happy. I was always daydreaming and I was busy thinking of his name. Then I no longer called him baby. I wake up one day and realize he is going to be named RILEY.

busog lang ako kaya ganyan tiyan ko! hehe

July. Most of my friends know. Roselyn posted pictures of me (very pregnant) in facebook. We had a pictorial, with me showing off my tummy. It was really fun. I am really lucky to have friends like Rose and Grace. Some of my friends were congratulating me in advance. It is nice to share this news with true friends!

nakalulon na ng pakwan. (:

August. Excited. I had my baby shower on August 14. I was really excited coz I can feel that my BIG day is near. I bought things for Riley – baru baruan, blanket, bonnet, mittens, pillows, diapers, bottles, every little thing that he will need. And every time I look at his things, I would have butterflies in my stomach. You can’t imagine how excited I was! There were days I would stare at his baru baruan for hours! Hehe. I was really looking forward to see him using all of the things I bought for him.

on baby shower day

September. Anxious. So near yet so far. I was anxious to see my son. It felt like forever since the moment I have known I am pregnant. Every day I wake up, since the first day of September, I was like “Ngaun na kayo manganganak?”My question had been answer on the twelfth day of September.

my last day of being pregnant

October, November, December. Motherhood. Well, you know the rest of the story. I’ve been a mother for 3 months now. It’s the most challenging and the most blissful days of my life at the same time. I never know a love like this can exist. He really is the reason of my existence. Every single day with him is a wonder. He never ceases to amaze me. His smile, his laugh, his touch, his burp, his movements, his yawn, everything about him gives joy to my heart. Although there were difficult times too, I put in my mind that it is part of motherhood.

2010 is the most memorable year of my life. The year when I get to be a mother. In the coming year, I know that it would be as wonderful as this year. As long as I have Riley, my family, and my friends, EVERY year would be a memorable one.

HAPPY 2011 everyone!